When you get way more involved than you thought you could.....
So there is going to be a little bit of a different topic than I originally intended.
The last couple of days have been a bit of a learning curve of sorts for me.
Basically, on Thursday, I came home from work.... and I started sweating and shaking. I started to feel warm and cold at the same time and I thought oh god I've caught a fever.
I also couldn't keep any food down.
I was later told that I had food poisoning, and believe it or not, this was a massive relief for me because I had alot of back pain.
Now this worried me because I only have one functioning kidney and I thought something was realllyyyyy wrong.
I've kinda been bed and sofa bound. In this time, I've had along time to think (aside from remembering all the times that I took my health for granted (we all do it especially when we have a hangover....).
I went back to thinking about the post that I wrote last weekend for the body confidence series, in which I shared a story that upset me and shocked me.
The original is on this post here .
I decided that I would drag myself to the shower, put on some makeup, blow dry my hair and film a video on the subject as I had some further thoughts (and I was going stir crazy)
The Video is here :
However, when I went to film... I never realised how deep my emotions ran, to the extent that I ended up crying a little on the video.
I guess, I am more human than I thought and I never realised how far talking about my anxiety in a frank way upset me.
I guess, I still think that people don't understand or maybe then don't WANT to understand. I quite often feel alone in it and then I end up isolating myself because of this thought.
I figured that I would let you watch it and decide
I'll try and put a more upbeat post tomorrow.
Thank you for reading
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