LIFESTYLE : An Anxious Week
So I try to be honest with you the reader on my journey with mental health.
All in all, I have to say that it is improving, I am finding that I am getting less depressed and less anxious as time goes on.
However, this week has been a bit of a step back.
I think that because we had a different and sad start to the week (I won't go into details), that I have spent alot of time worrying about Luke.
I think that I haven't really channelled or dealt with that energy, then I've had a really busy week at work and its all added to each other.
The past week, I've kinda been feeling stuck.
Being stuck is a massive trigger of mine.
I mine stuck in terms of where I live, not being able to see the end of my University Course in sight and in some aspects my job.
Don't get me wrong, I love my little flat, but its in a really busy part of town and it can be very noisy at night.
For a homebody like me, its not great. Also there is no parking so I feel as though I need to be home by 6pm every night.
Luke and I have put measures in place to save for a mortgage, its just getting there now.
I guess when you are in the middle of something, its the determination to keep going until you can see the final stretch. I think that this is again the problem with University.
I knew that my depression was rearing its ugly head because I came home from work every night and just slept and hid in bed.
I now have a plan in place that every night that I am not at the gym, I do two hours of Uni work after my work shift ends.
As for my job, I'm actually doing well. I just think that its not the job I want to do for the rest of my life. However, while I wait for my Uni stuff to be finished... I will put my all in.
I am hoping to do some teacher training as soon as I can as it where I see my future going.
As I said, I am in the middle stretch and I just need to keep pushing. They say that this is the time to have the most determination.
It's time to work hard at school and in the gym, Play a stupid amount of games and blog as hard as I can ;)
I feel like its ok to sometimes take a step back as long as you work through it and find a way forward.
I like to be honest after the event as I like to share what I have learned with you all.
Thanks for reading